I saw AZRItoday... My heart is at war. I don't feel like I want to know why at all... *Groan*
Reason? I still admire her? Oh no... Hate or admiration is at war now. I felt lke sobbing whenever I had a flashback of what she said about me being a s _ _ _ _ _ _. You can surely guess what was the word. I am fond of her and in my daydreams, she's my favourite godsis. Yar, I know she wouldn't accept.
I asked for her forgiveness in her blog and I knew she would be angry. It all started out that I gave her a rose (Stupid rose for existing but not its fault, mine.). Supposedly, rose are romatic, aren't they? But then later, I didn't see it anymore so I thought that she threw it, maybe? Wrong idea! She read my blog which was a big shock to me. I hated myself for the wrong accusation. I accused her throwing that rose. She used angry words. From her words, I was sure she was talking about me. Not only that. It seems that she was very angry. Damn it! She read my blog!
I asked for frogiveness in her blog. I said sorry. Then... she and I lost contact... In fs and myspace. She was never heard by me again. And I seldom see her... Until today that set my feelings at war! (I seemed dramatic but all was true). She changed her blog url just to get away from me. I'm... going to cry now but I'm holding on. Don't want to blur the image of the computer at the moment. I want to write on...
Okay... So... I'm very very very very very x1,000,000 million times SORRY!!! Forgive me and give me one last chance, please? Onegai? Anybody can tell me how to apologise to her whether faceto face or through mail. But for mail, she'll ignore me. On the other hand, she'll ignore me too in school. Ugh!! I'm useless!
Yup! Guess what? I got 2 free passes to enter the zon for Fahrenheit's concert! I'm thrilled to death! But still, it upsets me for... I can't go. Parents won't allow... They said it's dangerous that people might step on people, you know? All those pushing and squeezing. Hmm... My prents lways don't allow me out. It's a bit unfair and I know they care for my security but and I loved it that way how they protect me... I'm a big baby! They spoilt me. Not that I have any objection... at all!
So... the first time I get to go out without my parents was when I was Primary 6. Going to a trip to Jusco, organised by the school. Hehe... Thee second time that I remember was... me camping, also organised by the school anyway but I got home early because my sis not feeling that well. I admit I don't like camping. I mean, I can survive if I had my favourite bath and all. Spoilt kid. A pity... So spolit. Like spoilt princess!!! Hahahar!!!
I'm still very upset that I can't go to Fahrenheit's concert. Can't I have a little bit of freedom? I don't offend if My parents want to go. But my parents won't even allow me to go. Even if I have enough tickets. The thing is those free passes I won are going to be wasted. Such a pity... I beg that, for this once please let me go? I beg... I want to be hopeful that my wish will come true and I get to see my beloved Jiro hubby.... on stage, singing. I had been daydreaming that one day, Fahrenheit will come to Johor but I know it was hopeless. Then, it's just like magic is in the air. Suddenly, Fahrenheit did come! It was like, WOW! Unbelievable but true. But still... I can't go. Boohoohoo!!! TOT!!!
Oh! Did I tell you that the Grief and Sorrow is THE END already? Hahar... So careless of me...
Innocent Me
12:25 AM
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Name: May Ting (Michelle)
Nickname: Yuka Koyomi
Birth: 16 December
LOVES
1. Yu Kanda(An obsession)
2. Lee Sungmin (Kyumin)
3. Kim Heechul (Hanchul)
4. Azuma Yunoki
5. Watching Anime.
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
Your two warm hands get cold when I’m cold, your heart which used to be strong gets sensitive when I’m hurt
To silently take my hands, to silently hold me, I only wish for those small comforts
You don’t know this heart of mine, which always wants to do more for you
My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
When my greedy heart gradually looks to other directions, when my greeds grow more than my mind can handle
To understand, to tell me clearly after all those excuses “I’m here”, only that one thing
I’m always thankful. Will I ever act that well just like you
My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
You know what, little much little even though I’m shy, you don’t know it but you’re burning like the sun, please understand my heart
Even though those girls appearing on TV shows are sparkling, I always look at you (I’m crazy crazy Baby)
Hearing you tell me “I love you”, I have everything in this world You & I, You’re so fine, Is there even anyone like you?
I love you Oh, please know it, that to me there’s only you, that I foolishly see you as my everything
We came on the same road, we are just like each other, how surprising, how thankful, it’s just love
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
There’s no one like you
Innocence
Innocence stolen without my permission
Innocence gone without my submission
Innocence lost through another’s plan
Innocence no longer for another man
Innocence turned to hatred and fear
Innocence gone, no man can come near
Innocence taken from a little girl’s heart
Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart
Innocence disappears like dew in the sun
Innocence faded before it’s begun
Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon
Innocence ripped away too soon
