I've never met someone so... "Ugh!" ... before. Simply just say... Do you really think you are worth it? You are not somehow. Grrrr!!! Cheh! Some person you are! And I can't believe what my friends said. Unbelievable, truly. Even my sister also support the fact about that 'HATE' thingy of mine. Yar, life's just like that for me. Always blinded by other things. Always chose the wrong things and then... regret. Fully. Ugh! Tch! I hate myself already. Everyday. Everything about myself. Full of hatred, that's me.
Ahhh.... I'm dreaming about Kanda, always. He never failed to 'not' hurt me. He's nice.
Oh, the sinful darkness tugging at my heartstrings, Your voice is like anaesthesia, Coldly, it robs me of my senses. *Yukaho* I stopped by the frozen lake and watched it, letting my tears flow. The darkness around me reminded me that I was in pain. I was and yet, I am. I felt like commiting suicide now. I placed one feet onto the ice slowly and balanced myself. The cold ice under my shoes can be felt and sent shiver down my spine. It is cold. Very.
I only smiled. I am going to die. What I care for in this world. There's not a care anymore. My parents are gone, only an old man who is willing to adopt me. My best friend is gone too. I do not have a boyfriend. So, nobody would even care. So, why I care? It's useless to stop me now. I walked on on the thin ice to find a nice spot where no one can find me.
I did not notice someone watching me and shouting at me to come back, or rather not wanting to care. His voice fell back on deaf ears. I smiled to myself. He can watch, as he was just a stranger to me.
I tapped the ice underneath me. It should be time now. I tapped harder, breaking the ice. The person watching me was gone. Finally, I can die in peace.
A dark figure caught my arm and pulled me out of where I was standing and carried me on his back to firm ground. "We are safe..." he told me. I struggled to go back. "I want to die. Let go!" I shouted at him. He was too strong for me. He carried me all the way home.
He sang a tune, a lullaby. I remembered the sweet song. I fell asleep, head on his shoulder. I did not notice that he had me sleep on his bed while he kept on singing the lullaby to make me go to sleep. He stayed where he was for the whole night, beside my bed. Singing lullabies.
In the cold, I realise that, there is a someone that cared for me... A stranger, still. Why, oh why not let me die to end my suffering? I don't deserve this care. You are too kind.
So, am I going to start a new life in the next morning, with you still by my side? I grow to love this stranger, secretly, in my sleep. I smiled in my sleep and had the sweetest dream. I forgot my pain and dreamed.
Innocent Me
6:40 AM
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Name: May Ting (Michelle)
Nickname: Yuka Koyomi
Birth: 16 December
LOVES
1. Yu Kanda(An obsession)
2. Lee Sungmin (Kyumin)
3. Kim Heechul (Hanchul)
4. Azuma Yunoki
5. Watching Anime.
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
Your two warm hands get cold when I’m cold, your heart which used to be strong gets sensitive when I’m hurt
To silently take my hands, to silently hold me, I only wish for those small comforts
You don’t know this heart of mine, which always wants to do more for you
My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
When my greedy heart gradually looks to other directions, when my greeds grow more than my mind can handle
To understand, to tell me clearly after all those excuses “I’m here”, only that one thing
I’m always thankful. Will I ever act that well just like you
My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
You know what, little much little even though I’m shy, you don’t know it but you’re burning like the sun, please understand my heart
Even though those girls appearing on TV shows are sparkling, I always look at you (I’m crazy crazy Baby)
Hearing you tell me “I love you”, I have everything in this world You & I, You’re so fine, Is there even anyone like you?
I love you Oh, please know it, that to me there’s only you, that I foolishly see you as my everything
We came on the same road, we are just like each other, how surprising, how thankful, it’s just love
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
There’s no one like you
Innocence
Innocence stolen without my permission
Innocence gone without my submission
Innocence lost through another’s plan
Innocence no longer for another man
Innocence turned to hatred and fear
Innocence gone, no man can come near
Innocence taken from a little girl’s heart
Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart
Innocence disappears like dew in the sun
Innocence faded before it’s begun
Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon
Innocence ripped away too soon
