Yeah well, I bought a flower -rose- for Azri on teacher's day although I shouldn't do so actually... Because it's teacher day. Chang counted the petals of the rose -to give or not to give- but the result was 'to give', not really accurate, I guess... I ended up standing there like a JERK! Gathering courage to give her, flushing the deepest red. Err... Fara called her for me and I'm so sorryyyyyy... Because she's eating. I'm gonna kick my own butt for disturbing her meal, if I can reach. It took some time for her to come, like forever~! Hehe... I shyly gave it to her. Herbeautiful and kawaii smile is what I'm going to treasure... She smiled and said 'thanks'. OMG! It's my first time, face to face! I'm gonna kill myself somehow! I kept having flashbacks of it!
But then later, what upsets me. It's just me, not her fault. My existence was plainly.... Let's just say, I wish to be 'not existed' at the moment. But anyways, I love my own existence because I can see the WORLD. Going back to the topic... I sort of saw her 'without' the flower anymore. So, the first thought that came to me was that, she threw it. But will she do so? It is possible. You don't even know. It's a heartache for me to bear. It made me mad, want to cry myself to sleep but I didn't shed a tear. I want to be strong. I try to forget about it and think that it had never happened at all. So, that was my first thought.... But secondly was, maybe she 'tumpang letak' in other people's water bottle? Roses need water or will layu.... I'm being hopeful here. HOPE!!!
So, I can't decide whether it's the first or second. Or is there any option number three? I do not have any idea. I'm sick of this, thinking about this. I think I am crazy too! Huahahaha!!! Because... to forget upset, sad or angry thoughts.... I think of my lovely, one and onlyYu Kanda!!! That's why I said I'm crazy but it's a help to me anyways. He made me forget the world I'm in. I just think of him, nothing else more.... It means I'm too obsessed in him, love him more than ever..... that no one else can replace HIM!
Although there are some other guys I go for, actually....
Animes: (Just font colour almost same with thier hair colour. Mostly black!)
Yu Kanda (D.Gray-Man)
Yunoki Azuma (La Corda D'oro)
Kyouya Ootori (Ouran High School Host Club)
Yukimura Sanada (Samurai Deeper Kyo)
Li Koyu (Saiunkoku Monogatari)
Allelujah Haptism (Gundam 00) [I got the sticker of their Gundams!!! Woohooo!!!]
Alto Saotome (Macross Frontier)
Nyx (Neo Angelique Abyss)
Real life:
Jiro Wang Dong Chen a.k.a Da Dong, from Fahrenheit a.k.a Fei Lun Hai
Danson Tang Yu Zhe
They're all my boyfriend!!! Or can I say.... Yu Kandaand Jiro is my husband?! Huahahahaha!!!
Innocent Me
2:28 AM
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Name: May Ting (Michelle)
Nickname: Yuka Koyomi
Birth: 16 December
LOVES
1. Yu Kanda(An obsession)
2. Lee Sungmin (Kyumin)
3. Kim Heechul (Hanchul)
4. Azuma Yunoki
5. Watching Anime.
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
Your two warm hands get cold when I’m cold, your heart which used to be strong gets sensitive when I’m hurt
To silently take my hands, to silently hold me, I only wish for those small comforts
You don’t know this heart of mine, which always wants to do more for you
My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
When my greedy heart gradually looks to other directions, when my greeds grow more than my mind can handle
To understand, to tell me clearly after all those excuses “I’m here”, only that one thing
I’m always thankful. Will I ever act that well just like you
My heart, say it out loud, my free soul
The days left are even more than the time when I came love you with a heart which always felt like the first time
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
You know what, little much little even though I’m shy, you don’t know it but you’re burning like the sun, please understand my heart
Even though those girls appearing on TV shows are sparkling, I always look at you (I’m crazy crazy Baby)
Hearing you tell me “I love you”, I have everything in this world You & I, You’re so fine, Is there even anyone like you?
I love you Oh, please know it, that to me there’s only you, that I foolishly see you as my everything
We came on the same road, we are just like each other, how surprising, how thankful, it’s just love
There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that
Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you
How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me
Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me
There’s no one like you
Innocence
Innocence stolen without my permission
Innocence gone without my submission
Innocence lost through another’s plan
Innocence no longer for another man
Innocence turned to hatred and fear
Innocence gone, no man can come near
Innocence taken from a little girl’s heart
Innocence replaced by mistrust, you thought you were smart
Innocence disappears like dew in the sun
Innocence faded before it’s begun
Innocence obscured like a cloud over the moon
Innocence ripped away too soon
